Tag: #alive

A closed door

It’s been a great day so far. I am happy to report my sister will be going back to school on Monday. Donnie has had me resting and relaxing. Spending time with chipper has been great. I’m proud of myself for things that have been going well amen. An amen is needed thanks to God that we have made it through the hurricane and anything else that has happened. I am loved and I know it. I got to share with my dad the family trees that I started on ancestry. I even found an old yearbook photo of him, it’s interesting what can happen. I’m very thankful.

End of the day

It’s another day come and passed. Spending time with family has been wonderful. I even had a visit from a friend today. I am feeling very blessed to have the friends I do. When you got a good support system it can make you feel so much better about your life and the things you have been doing.

My husband has been a wonderful big help. I have been working on relaxing and resting more. Our baby boy is our bundle of joy. I have been joining the writer’s lifts on Twitter and connecting all my social media. I’m still wondering if my books are getting noticed. I’m gaining followers on everything, but I have only one review on good reads. I guess a part of me is still worried about it. I’m doing a lot of learning and reading through.

The New Year

Well, I know it was probably a crazy night for most. I hope you all had fun. It’s now officially 2022. Every day there will be something new to learn. We have a journey we are each on. I hope that we can all continue to grow and reflect on how our lives have been. Let’s become stronger and build on what we have.

Interesting!

Well, I have been doing so many different activities here lately. My body is worn out. Of course, I continue to push myself. I know it’s not something I should do, but it’s something I have been doing for years now. You got to be stronger than the pain. At least, that’s what my love tells me. He keeps me grounded at times when I’m feeling down.

How would you guys feel if I started a video blog or posted some of my work on here?? I’m wanting to expand out. Let me know! Well, I got the rest of tonight and tomorrow to get some rest. I just wanted to check-in. Have a great weekend and if you’re writing or reading, let me know how it’s going

Wow!!!

Hello, world!! It’s been a while I know. A lot has happened since the last time we met. Well, life sure does know how to cramp your style. Of course, I am still writing. I have been working on this story since October. It’s been a challenge this year. Although, I must say going through the prep process with new tips has helped me.

I have started using the NaNoWriMo novel prep and it has helped me a great deal. I think I will be using it in the future. I have been writing for so long that now just trying out different types of forms of outlines and watching videos on YouTube has been very helpful. I have even been watching the class from one of my favorite authors Jenna Moreci.

I am quite enjoying myself with it. Even though most of the time I’m at work and thinking about work when I am home, I have found time to write. Writing just makes me feel great and allows me to express my thoughts and create a world for my characters. Sometimes you can forget just how much fun you can have.

Happiness

Over the years, I have found different places to write. I have used a lot of social media as well. I have noticed I still come back to typing on my computer and hand writing. I have thought about so much stuff. Life happens to you, and you get carried away. You want to sit down and write it all down. Well, that’s what I do anyway. I have done tried and tried to get over things that have happened to me. Yet, even though the days go on, and they leave the front of my mind, when new obstacles come, which start to resemble the past mistakes, I still get nervous.
I want to fall apart. I want to break down and cry. I want to just wallow in the sorrow that’s before me. I have come to understand once you get those special people around you, who actually want to be there for you, and who are actually for you, there’s a change in you. You start to feel more powerful. You aren’t constantly wondering when something bad is going to happen. You just start to go with the flow. I’ve becoming really good at it. I have been all over the place.
Lately, I have started doing the CampNanowrimo as you already now. I am on day 7 and I have already gotten farther then what I thought I would. I’m proud of myself for actually trying to do this. Of course there is a lot of editing that will need to be done. I’m happy and excited about what I can do. There are things I remember from my teachers past. Going into college, here soon, I am wondering what my experience is going to be like. I wonder if I am going to end up pushing myself over the edge like I did in high school to get to where I wanted to be.
I have always tried to take everything I do seriously. Even when I am just singing on the smule sing! app for Karaoke I take it seriously. I love singing, but I know I’m not the best. Even when I am sitting at a desk listening to the teacher lecture or tell us about something we should really pay attention to, I want to get the full extent of it. I had a former teacher, who is a very good motivator and friend to me who told me, “You are your biggest critic.”
When she said that, to me at first I knew she was right. I knew because of the way I did my work. I always wanted it to be right. Everything for school had to be the way it was supposed to be. I’ve come to learn since I have left high school, the little stuff I do for fun, I still want it to be a success. I am so wrapped up with things I can burst. Of course that’s just my opinion. Back then, I was just waiting for my head to explode.
I used to think one day, it was going to be way too much, and I was going to end up in the hospital because of what I was doing. Back then I would try to only eat twice a day. I wasn’t too much of a breakfast person, and lunch I just went all out. For me, school was my safety. It was my place away from all the happenings of the place I lived. I know my family thinks I was one of those who was just being selfish and everything else.
That wasn’t true. I knew that when I was home, my anger was really bad. I knew when I was in school, everything I really wanted to do was at my fingertips. I liked being able to go to the library in the morning. I liked being in the hallway, and class talking to my friends. I generally liked being in school. Granted there were some days, when I was feeling like any other teenager, where I didn’t want to be there. Of course, it soon faded when something amazing happened for me at school.
There have always been good and bad days. For the past two years, I have been going back and forth amongst my family trying to make myself feel happy. Granted I do love my cousins. Yet, I didn’t want to babysit my whole life. I liked working at the daycare I was working at. Yet, I’ve always wanted to be a writer. Everyone likes to tell me, you won’t make money. You need a real job. You have to be able to take care of yourself. I do take care of myself. I’m still on this Earth aren’t I?
Of course I didn’t ever say that out loud. I am loved. I have actual happiness. Granted, being in school gave me happiness. Right now I am in the mode of happiness. I am so close to getting everything I want. I have a happy, and healthy relationship with my dad. I have a happy, healthy and loving relationship with a man, and I am getting ready to go to school. I am going to major in the arts and do what I do best. I’m going to work hard at school, and make sure I can get a degree to be an English teacher and also a writer.
I know you don’t have to have a degree to be a writer. I know there is a whole lot of business to it too. I just know I love the way my life is. I know you guys are probably wondering why I’m saying all of this. It’s only because for some strange reason today I felt like letting go. I felt like letting go of all the negative I have felt. All the things which seem to cloud up my mind a lot.
I create stories from my life like any other author. I wish I was one. I know I have to work my way to get there. I have been doing research about it for years. I love Maya Angelou, Charles Dickens, J.K. Rowling, L.M. Montgomery, Robert Frost, and a ton of other greats. I love to read and write. It just so happens, I am not giving up. There are people who may not like me, or who do. That’s something they will have to deal with.
If there is one thing that my high school did teach me was no matter how “hoodbridge” we were, we always knew what we wanted in life. I am proud of that. I may not be up in my years, but I have seen, heard and learned a lot from things I’ve done. I’m just feeling really happy today, and I just felt like talking. Sorry if this was too much to read. Thanks for actually reading it though. It takes a lot of guts to post your troubles.

Inspiration

I know I don’t usually write three blog posts in a day. Yet, that doesn’t mean I can’t start now. I do have a new inspiration. My inspiration has come from a new place inside. It’s where I feel I can be myself. I hope you guys like this poem.
You keep me calm.
You turn me on like a wildfire.
Sometimes just the sound of your voice makes me tingly.
I love you.
I know you love me.
This isn’t a Barney song.
Yet, we do have a whole lot in common.
Having someone who is willing to love me in all types of ways.
He is always right on time.
He seems to surprise me.
Yes, I have found what God has been trying to tell me.
It’s not that I need to be single.
It’s that I need to let someone love me.
This time its not one sided.
We are equal and that’s fantastic.
Calls that leave us happy and feeling loved.
Not ever going to sleep without a call or text.
He is one of my biggest supporters.
He motivates me as I do him.
I am coming out of my shell more.
I now understand what it means to be comfortable with someone.
We may be apart, but we know how to communicate.
God has given this to me.
It’s really a second chance at happiness.
I’m loving the feeling and the emotion in it.
I’m happy and that’s what matters.
I’m allowing myself to love again.
It’s amazing.